Sometimes I really hate being an introvert. Especially at times like church weekends away. I’ll be in a room full of people I love and whose company I enjoy, yet feel entirely alone and like I need to run away. I think people who don’t know me well assume I’m not as introverted as all that because I’m always involved and up the front doing something. But it’s all a ruse!
It’s taken all my energy at this weekend I’m away on at the moment to stay here, and not to drive home for the night as soon as dinner finished. And It’s not like I’m having a bad time! I’m just so thoroughly drained from being with people all day. I look at those playing games and having hilarious, raucous conversations with great envy.
The tiredness from too many people also exacerbates emotions because i was already feeling a bit low, it’s just made me feel incredibly sad. And to compensate for feeling rotten, and to try and keep my energy at a level where I can participate in even a short chat, I’ve eaten far too much fatty and sugary food. Which doesn’t help at all.
Sometimes I really hate being an introvert.